Almost a year ago I got married during a retrograde. It was terrifying for me to the point that I almost rescheduled the event. I am so careful about avoiding big life events, decisions, changes during these times of year because I know that oftentimes communication can be blocked or missed. But here I was about to marry the person of my dreams and considering rescheduling simply because Mercury does its weird dance? Two of my clients (I’m going to call you out Brittany and Taylor) were able to convince me that I should just go through with my original plans and trust in the commitment I was making. Thinking back, it was the ultimate trust fall into the universe’s arms and I am the most grateful for it. Leaping into the unknown with an open heart has shifted me into an almost entirely different person. I’m trusting, open, willing, and hopeful for the future. My Virgo tendencies are still trying to critique and control everything but I feel much more able to just let go and focus on what really matters in this life.
So now that I’m here, flying off to Mexico for a week of uninterrupted time with my husband where the wifi is non-existent, and I’m filled with absolute fear. I realize that this fear is actually my lack of trust that all of the work I have spent with my clients is going to fall through the cracks. The last thing I want is for any of you to feel like I’ve left you stranded but it dawned on me. 1) It’s just skin and not that serious and 2) the basis of my entire practice is teaching my clients to tap into their own intuition on how to care for themselves. That’s when the light bulb went off. I’m traveling during a retrograde for a multitude of reasons. The first being I need to physically be disconnected for my own sanity and the second, it’s my opportunity to have another trust fall. This time, it’s in you! I have to trust that you won’t just leave me as a client because I’m unavailable, that you won’t run to get a prescription if you get one breakout, and that you will resort back to our notes and hear my voice in your head repeating all the self-love I have taught you when treating your skin.
I genuinely don’t know what my inbox will look like when I come back but I can’t focus my energy on it. I have every right to enjoy my trip and know that my community wants to support me while I’m away. Thanks so much for all the support and I so look forward to sharing all of my new memories with you when I get back.